I didn't want to use any other title than this one so I am stealing the title of a movie for this post. Hope Farhan Akhtar doesn't mind it. It has been 4 days since I had the last exam of my Masters here. The enchanting feeling of completing my masters degree leaves me with an indescribable expression. Life goes on...and I feel I slowly proceed ahead with a handful of aims and few dreams in heart on the road to life."Lakshya" is the most pronounced word of initial phases of one's life. I still remember I had 100 objectives before I stepped in the world of structural engineering. I had developed an interest in astronomy and study of heavenly objects and then I decided to be an astronaut. I enjoyed watching circus shows in my town and I wanted to be a circus artist. Then, music stepped in my life and I dreamed by heart days and nights to be a singer. Traversing on the flow of this stream named life, I went on to aim some more and finally I have landed up here. A lot of people ask me whether I wanted to be a structural engineer very first. My sister still believes that I would have gone to pursue writing as a career.
Ruminating over and over aims that lead my past and contemplating future objectives, been through the phases of "I came-I saw-and I conquered" to " Mera-sundar-sapna-toot-gaya"...I am still treading ahead to target on something. And through all those stages, I sometimes don't understand what I am targeting to. Do I want to be a professional with unlimited earnings or a figure of a successful person? Do I want to be a celebrity who captures a daily column on Page-3 and a rich fellow? Is that what I wanted to be? I feel confused sometimes when I achieve something....as to what next now? If I fail, I know I need to go on again. My questions to myself can give an impression of my inanity to many afterward. But the truth is that I am still looking for my purpose in life. I am still searching for the reason of my existence on this earth.
I dreamed to be a singer and I couldn't advance beyond the mass audience of classical nights I took part in. I did never wish to be a writer and here I am writing a blog which connects me with a lot of different souls on this planet. I could never remotely think of being a poetic temperamental individual but my thoughts found a way to rhyme themselves and to flow on paper. And an urge of always creating something got me in structural engg. May be here I can create something visible in front of my eyes for long. Lakshyas were made and lakshyas were achieved. Some of them though died in course of time also. I feel none of the achievements satisfied me completely. The peace of mind still seems far ahead. Losses leave a ground zero mark on me and then I try to rise like a phoenix again out of my own remnants. My gains make me happy for sometime and then the vigor and sparkle die down again.
I realized then that everything is going to lose its charm or blues eventually and will fade away and vanish. These rises and dumps tell that I started my journey one day with nothing and one day it will end with nothing. I brought nothing with me except happiness and peace of mind to my loved ones and will take nothing with me except peace of mind and satisfaction. Then why I am going towards making money and dreaming to lead a materialistic life. Money brings some comfort and luxury to life but not peace of mind. I don't want to get evaporated in the burns where I will have all the money, status and success and still have no time to laugh with people, live for my family, stand by them when they want or need me, or end up where relations become cold and lose their warmth. I want to fade away with a peace in my mind that even though I couldn't achieve a lot in life and couldn't touch the zeniths I aimed...I am still vanishing being a nice person with peace that I finally found the meaning of my life and reason of my existence. Till the moment I get it, there is no peace to me.
So, my lakshya of having a masters degree is achieved. And now, I want a "Lakshya" again in life...May be, searching myself amongst these aims will lead me somewhere to my purpose. At last, there is nothing worse than having an aimless day in life. Have you all come to know what your purpose is?.....
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Purpose of Life : Happiness.
~Kyunki Hum Keh rahe hai
I always keep short term goals(lakshya). After achieving those goals I feel satisfied for sure but at the same time I get some feeling of emptiness or like something important in my life missing...I don't know... but I think you put your feelings in right words. And about purpose of life; I think I am still a kid to think about that ;)
-Yogesh
Hi,
Got to your blog & 'unfortunately' got back to the dilemma that every young soul tries to run from.
We create designs for ourselves but in the end just be another block in the destiny's design.
But as they say, that's life..!!
whenever i feel this way i read this email i got..
Don't say you're not important,
It simply isn't true,
The fact that you were born,
Is proof, God has a plan for you.
The path may seem unclear right now,
But one day you will see,
That all that came before,
Was truly meant to be,
God wrote the book that is Life,
That's all you need to know.
Each day that you are living,
Was written long ago.
God only writes best sellers,
So be proud of who you are,
Your character is important,
In this book, you are the 'Star'.
hope it helps!!
Remember....
Life is meant to be lived with Kaizen principle ( trademarked to me ), a way of constant and continuous improvement.
@Indian Idol/Anonymous--Thanks friend...everyone wants to be happy but if it yours happiness in others' happiness then it gives satisfaction. Tum se hi seekha hai yeh lesson maine...Remember?
hey purva! i just happened to stumble upon ur blog and it simply resonated with my thoughts! u r quite a decent writer..really!! hmm..purpose in life? i think..lots of us struggle finding it out..i tried and tried and then...one day tried to see something beyond..why do we assume somebody else or god has had a specific purpose when he created us! my take is - life is too short..so dont waste time in seeking for the purpose..just create it! create your own purpose and live (or may die) for it! u know..orign and end is nothing..so just relish being a human being..and make the most of it:) In the end - who knows if it matters or not..but it matters during the process..and that feeling can b experienced only if u r a human. I believe, that feeling gives a meaning to a life :)
@Yogesh--Well...it's always the best to keep short term goals but to make the life meaningful can't be a short term goal which will seem to be achieved sooner than one thinks...It is always a long term goal and which is I guess the most important of all..And, do you still consider yourself a kid to set purpose of life?
@Sumit--Thanks a lot friend for the precious words you wrote here as comments...Keep visiting and keep commenting...btw, nice blog yours.
@Pintya--Thanks pintya...your kind words and principles are always a treat to know..And I agree nothing lesser..Improvement marks the real course and path where you will lead and finally end to...
@Niranjan---Thanks buddy for the important lesson here...My problem is that I make 100 aims everyday and get confused which of those is it or rather I should say..which of those is me? the real me...But of course, I will try to think on the lines you talked about...Keep visiting..
HEY PURVA!
I LOVED READING THIS! I HAVE BEEN LIKE THIS ALWAYS! :)
@Rachana didi--I can feel that didi. This post is just one another mirror of my thoughts.
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