Its just a little crush

I am a die hard fan of KK...not the KK of sarkar fame and the horny creature of Drona...It is the singer KK barkhurdaar.There is something really heart capturing in this guy's voice which I can't resist to...I love his songs right from the day I heard him singing" Yaaron dosti badi haseen hai"...Sometimes when I am too tired after work and studies, I play his songs to get myself energized. I love one of his song from movie MP3-mera pehla pehla pyar which is romantic, happy going and mast at the same time...the title track...When he sings...mera pehla pehla pyar hai yeh..o o o o....my heart goes out on him...I haven't watched the movie but I am sure the actor enacting this song must be feeling the love in those words right in his heart. May be someone in

love can feel the love in the words.

I wish I could say" Hey man, I do not know what you think about me and whether you have already fallen in love with the girl with the green hair standing near that door...but I really want to tell you that I am in love with you...so this song is for you buddy..SSSSSmera pehla pehla pyar hai yeh SSSSS...o o o o e e e e e." But unfortunately due to my bin-akal-ki-khopdi and people running-scratching their hair after listening to my thoughts and bakwaas, this fantasy hasn't come true in last 16 years of my life...( Come on, a normal girl never ages beyond 16 yaar..:)

Every person has some fantasies, few dreams of a person. We see and meet so many people during our life specially teen-age and someone special takes that special place very easily. Most of the times the person is a celebrity or a famous personality or someone to whom access is very difficult and that makes us crave for that person days and nights. I am no exception to it. I have also had my phases and crushes on a lot of males in my life. No normal guy managed to stay near with my kind of bheja-bhool-ja talks....so crushes se hi kaam chalana pada. Here is a peep into my teen-age couchy-couchy emotions.

1. Sachin Tendulkar

My first and foremost crush was Sachin Tendulkar. I fell in love with him when I was only 8 years old. He had become a famous face of indian cricket then. Papa and me used to watch cricket matches together with papa watching the game and me watching him only. I used to worship him like a god and had all my fantasies of marrying him just like other girls. With mostly me and papa around then, I was like.."Papa, I have searched an intelligent, smart and capable son-in-law for you..see he is a marathi so there won't be any caste problem." And papa just used to laugh at my logics.He has been my biggest crush for the longest period of time. Then, he married a lady doctor 5 years older than him who treated his finger injury once when he visited her hospital...Hey Sachin, you married your finger-fixer-doctor? What about the lakhon-karoro-tukde of my pyar-bhara-dil? Sob..Sob..Oye chill maar little master, you have full freedom to marry your finger-pancreas-kidney doctor, nurse or compounder...but don't forget your choti-si-air conditioner.

2. Siddharth Narayan

Khalbali hai khalbali stirred my calm-serene-quiet-heartlake like nothing. I had watched Rang De Basanti 3 times a single day when it was released, just for Siddarth Darling...With one more Siddharth fan at home in the form of my lovely chutki,I used to give a tough fight to her to possess the TV remote while watching the movie. I loved him in the scene when he admitted killing the minister at All India Radio...and god knows how many times I have watched that scene rewinding again and again. Due to my mixed cultural upbringing,I have remote possibility of mastering over a single language in my life. I could never even thought of watching anything with any south indian language which is like Kala-akshar-bhais-barabar for me.... But only for my Sids baby, I went on to watch all his Telugu and Tamil movies before and after RDB fever happened...Sue kar mere mann ko kiya Sids ne kya ishaara...

3. Sonu Nigam-Shaan-KK trio

Being a music lover and singer without profession, having no crush for singers will be like being laloo prasad yadav with no love for chaara. As I mentioned, half of my life has gone in piling up under music cassetes and cds. I had gone crazy after Sonu Nigam's "Saathiya", Shaan's "Tanha Dil" and KK's "Yaaron dosti"...When my papa used to be like enough-of-you-boring-us-with-this-trio-songs expression, I used to be with chill-papa-my kidneys-go-hmmm...hmmm...hmmm-with-their songs facial expression...This is the only crush which has stayed in my non-sensical mind till now. It is hard for me to keep music away in order to have proper biological functioning of my lungs,intestines and khopdi...

4. Air force pilots of the Air-force training center near my hostel

This category has been the only category approachable to me so far...There was an air force base training center right at 5 mins walk from my hostel during my under graduation in Rajasthan. Me and my roomy used to walk down there every evening just to have a glimpse of the air force pilots...With an ice-cream parlour near that base center, my roomy and I used to buy an ice-cream before going there..and with the thandi-thandi-kulfi and handsome-air-force-officers, we almost planned on marrying an air force pilot later in life. During those 4 years of under graduation, I even used to dream of my-sapno-ka-raajkumar-getting-off-a fighter plane rather than getting-off-a white horse.

Strange fantasizing and strange tantalizing in life...but hey, is there anyone around in this world whose heart has never gone out for someone special...After all, its just a little crush...